Do they even have souls?

Because I think I just ate them all

Sometimes...

Sometimes

When you write too much about your life and realize the word 'sometimes' plays too many role in your life. It somehow becomes an early conclusion to what you're going to do. It sounds like you're defeated, predictably, but it also sounds like a victory comes together with a big smile on your face.

Lisa Ekdahl "Now or Never"

#SongOfTheDay



I have no idea when was the first time I listened to this beautiful song. What I know is.. her voice sounds exactly same like my friend's(Satrina Jeafry). Well I do hope she google her name because I want her to read this post. Since I haven't seen her in a while.

This song is obviosly about someone she waited for so long to be with. Probably, she's been on this excrutiating wait and fed up and grab a pen and put this lyrics on. Her voice is fascinating, anyone can fall in love listening to it. Too bad, I'm a girl and isn't single anymore. Heheh!



Lisa Ekdahl-Now or Never (lyrics)

Hey there baby make up your mind
'Cause I've been waiting such a long, long time

Now baby or never 'cause I been so good to you
Now baby or never 'cause I've been so lonesome, too
Now baby or never if I mean anything to you
Now baby or never 'cause I've wasted so much time
Now baby or never and you must make up your mind
Now baby or never it ain't no fault of mine
It's got to be yes or no
It's either you stay or go
You can't leave me on the shelf
You gotta commit yourself

It's either you will, or you won't fall In love with me
I'm gonna call you once more on the telephone
I'll give you till twelve then I'll be gone

April 2013 : A Getaway to KK

This is an old story. About me and my friend had our short vacation to this lovely place, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. This wasn't my first time for KK but still, whenever you have your best buddy with you, the trip is going to be fun. 

I didn't bring any cash. Well I did, but only few bucks and I assume that as zero. I reached KK with bad feelings. I don't know where to go and what to do. Even if that was not my first time being in KK. I studied in Sabah Foundation College in 2009 for a year but I quit for a major reason anyone can have, MONEY. But that was few years ago. KK had changed a lot. That instant. or it's just my bad memories.

So, after 15 minutes of waiting, my friend finally reached and she asked me where to go. Going for a hotel-hunt was not a bad idea so we grab a cab and head to the town. Yeah, tired. Heavy backpack and shits. We finally found a cheap hotel named ...err I don't think I'm going to mention the name here because I'll tell you why, later. 

Single bed for two single lady. That sounds awkward,huh? Not when you know you're straight enough to do so. Cut cost so that's it. A single bedroom sounds good. That tv pissed me very well since I have to search for the channel manually. Although I'm not in the mood for watching tv. Just feel like lying down watching some good movies. Too bad, no good movies.

I'll tell you the reason why I'm not mentioning the hotel's name. It's because....this room scared me with the cockroaches. My friend paid RM60 a night not to see a fucking cockroach landed in my beer?!

And also, she bought me beers too. What a friend! but damn that cocky.

First day in KK, head to the bundle palace. Not really a palace. Haha. We bought cheap awesome clothes! I swear they were very cheap and in good condition.

That's my friend. She was wearing that sweater I bought at the same place few years ago. Hahaha I don't know if she noticed that or not.

The next day, we walked to Centrepoint Mall, located exactly in the middle of the not-so-busy town. We just walked the whole day for our eyes. Lookin for stuff and tried on some wigs.

That's me. Do I look similar to this guy?

Meh.. Just an attempt on having the same thick hair with Jesse Pintado. Btw, he died. R.I.P.

We also met few friends in KK. And up with a brilliant idea. We're going to Kundasang! I always wanted to go there. and I nailed it. It was a beautiful place, and beautiful temperature. hahaha.

A sudden situation that pissed me off very well

I have been scratching my arms for 10 minutes discontinuously. I had no idea what the heck is going on with my skin. It irritates very much everytime I finished my shower. I am using Dove Bar soap and is that the reason?

Skip that.

I am doing just fine these few days. And I imagined a lot of things lately. Especially about my future. I thought about starting a so called 'new life' somewhere out of this country. I distaste every random things that is happening around, especially the people.

Remember about my last post(I strictly believe that no one reads my blog) which I mentioned about 'I am a hater' ? Yes, I am. Maybe to be precisely clear. I am a hater because I received rude answers from people, that 'disgusted' look everytime I am asking for specification of an expensive gadgets. Like, come on.

Today I went to Everrise for an instant groceries shopping. While I am waiting for the cashier to RECOUNT the balance(I don't know what took them so long for that), I glanced to my left and right and heard a conversation of three workers. One of them was the cleaner which obviously means he is the one who's holding the broom and the dustpan. And the other two bastards probably are the supervisor or shit. I don't know. "Clean that up!!" one of the two bastard angrily point at a piece of rubbish(roughly sized around 5cm x 5cm) and the humble cleaner dude swept it to the dustpan and asked one of the two bastards "You celebrate Raya?"

Look. This isn't about the question. This is about the look on his face. He asked it with bursting fear, he was trying to have a communication with them two bastards. And that guy pretend like no one was asking him question. with that face. Holy lord, what is wrong with that guy.

That's ONE of rude appearance I dislike which I have to deal with, everyday.

I'm not saying that other countries don't have these types of people. It's just... I just want to give it a shot, you know?

I wanna live in Sweden so much. Don't ask me why, I'll hit you with a long list of reasons. And I don't want to do so.

Check out my parcel

I received a parcel from my mom yesterday. She sent me a handmade patchwork blanket. It is so damn comfortable I can sleep the whole day without considering the classes I have.

And that owl pillowcase. I bought that fabric a year ago and leave it rust in a box. And finally my mom found it and made me this pillowcase. :-)

Baggage

I know by asking you this question "Do you carry any baggage?" does not make me look or sound caring. But I am trying to. Everyone is carrying a baggage. A baggage is like, a compulsory thing you have to... you ought to carry. Well, you can't use the word 'unlike' here.

"Unlike her, my baggage is heavier" 

"Unlike him, my baggage looks cooler"

Nope. 

The reason why you can't use the word 'unlike' is because there will be at least a thousand persons in this world, having the similar baggage with you. It's just that you don't know who they are.

I am getting fed up with my problems. I don't feel like waking up in the morning and have a nice breakfast. I don't feel like going to cool places. I don't feel like talking to anyone and I don't feel like holding a beer and have fun with my friends. I don't know. I have friends? 

I am currently having many baggages. You know, one of them surely be labelled 'Still asking money from my parents'. That isn't cool for a lady aged 21. or just isn't cool for me.

Being a young adult is insane. 

I have no idea with my future and jobs. Maybe I should just stick my butt to my bed and sleep because If I'm not sleeping, I'm not producing anything either. Or maybe I should get the hell up and do something. 

Yeah, maybe I should just go to sleep and relax.