Karma?

I don't really believe in karma, but sometimes, situation forces me to. This photo clearly explains 'karma'. But if I were the red-head, I'll feel proud of myself instead of feeling happy for the successful revenge. 

From Borneo to le Zermatt

The stretch of Alpine mountains that runs through the country divides Europe into two. Zermatt, is a beautiful village that I really wanted to go to. Behind those mountains, there's a lot I can do. I really enjoy doing outdoor activities but.. here, in my town I'm living in right now, I never had the chance. I did. But I don't like that feeling of having a short-happiness. But I do feel grateful though.

I always wanted to get out from this country some day, after having enough money for me to afford everything--which includes my foods, shopping, a place to enjoy a long-spectacular rest (with whomever I go there with), beers, and etc.

And since Switzerland is having a well-developed train route system, that would be an awesome thing to try. I never get on a train since I was a foetus. I would love to travel by the panoramic train here in Switzerland and get a clear view of the country-side.

Buffering

I am getting really bored here. I came to work just for waiting the clock turns to 5 and go home. It is super relaxing but I just can't do this. Bahahah! I mean, I just can't do nothing. But it feels really good waking up in the morning, had breakfast in the car and morning cigars during the journey. I have an interview this saturday, though. I hope it went well.

This cat appeared at the door just now, asking for food. Actually he's doing it for his pregnant wife. :)

4:40p.m. now. Pffft. I am buffering here. 

April 2013 : A Getaway to KK

This is an old story. About me and my friend had our short vacation to this lovely place, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah. This wasn't my first time for KK but still, whenever you have your best buddy with you, the trip is going to be fun. 

I didn't bring any cash. Well I did, but only few bucks and I assume that as zero. I reached KK with bad feelings. I don't know where to go and what to do. Even if that was not my first time being in KK. I studied in Sabah Foundation College in 2009 for a year but I quit for a major reason anyone can have, MONEY. But that was few years ago. KK had changed a lot. That instant. or it's just my bad memories.

So, after 15 minutes of waiting, my friend finally reached and she asked me where to go. Going for a hotel-hunt was not a bad idea so we grab a cab and head to the town. Yeah, tired. Heavy backpack and shits. We finally found a cheap hotel named ...err I don't think I'm going to mention the name here because I'll tell you why, later. 

Single bed for two single lady. That sounds awkward,huh? Not when you know you're straight enough to do so. Cut cost so that's it. A single bedroom sounds good. That tv pissed me very well since I have to search for the channel manually. Although I'm not in the mood for watching tv. Just feel like lying down watching some good movies. Too bad, no good movies.

I'll tell you the reason why I'm not mentioning the hotel's name. It's because....this room scared me with the cockroaches. My friend paid RM60 a night not to see a fucking cockroach landed in my beer?!

And also, she bought me beers too. What a friend! but damn that cocky.

First day in KK, head to the bundle palace. Not really a palace. Haha. We bought cheap awesome clothes! I swear they were very cheap and in good condition.

That's my friend. She was wearing that sweater I bought at the same place few years ago. Hahaha I don't know if she noticed that or not.

The next day, we walked to Centrepoint Mall, located exactly in the middle of the not-so-busy town. We just walked the whole day for our eyes. Lookin for stuff and tried on some wigs.

That's me. Do I look similar to this guy?

Meh.. Just an attempt on having the same thick hair with Jesse Pintado. Btw, he died. R.I.P.

We also met few friends in KK. And up with a brilliant idea. We're going to Kundasang! I always wanted to go there. and I nailed it. It was a beautiful place, and beautiful temperature. hahaha.

Don't Stay Home

Why would I stay at home when this turns me on all the time. Damn it, KE.

Worthless denial and shake one's head

Both sides are denying. 

How can by saying "I'm fine" can extend the whole story? Even it only takes 2 awkward seconds to say that.

It all started on a quiet and cold night, drizzly rain wetting the roof of the apartment. She could hear the sound of the rain tapping the roof clearly. They'll get bored every minute, every minute which means they'll easily get bored no matter what.

But then, all they could do is just sit down on that old smelly couch and patiently wait for the day to end.

Yesterday ends with distress.

She walked that path and regret but by the time she regrets, he came. He turned on the signal light instead, then she realized that path she walked is already dead.

How I deal with people around me

I, despite living with someone who is not at home during lunch, able to have lunch by myself--currently.

That isn't an achievement. I know.. My point is, sometimes being alone is not as hard as you imagined. It only requires some happy messages to reach your brain and make it happen. 

A loner is a sad person? No. Some people like to be alone. Some people don't. Some people want to be alone. Some people don't. There are so many different behaviour & temperament that surround us. 

I (somehow) found it very hard-to-get periodically. It depends on how people expose that feeling. Either showing me their angry faces, or by a serious implication to my ... to my... I don't know. Maybe to my career or else? Or sarcastically make me a God. 

You know? Too much.
Sometimes we can't impeccably take what they give; until we can indirectly see what they are attempting to convey.

That's how I deal with people. Not in the past.

A place that is sick at heart

When a place releases loud noises like laughter and shits, that place may seem happy. I immaculately believe that those loud noises may create somekind of a miniature silhoutte in my head and jump out of my eyes; that place.. is full of disconsolation. 

It is. 

The Small Apartment

Remember about the small apartment I live in? I talked about, recently? 

I'm moving out this September. This space is bittersweet. There are happy and unhappy things revolved around here, at the same time. But the thing I didn't noticed about this house is .. It rebounds my life from miserable to unruffled. My mistakes maul my presence today but this house,somehow, tells me to move on.

Can you imagine how a weak, childish, boyish, easy-exasperate lady.. turned into an unsophisticated person? You may retort with a short opinion.

Having some creepy unidentified circumstance inside you

It really makes you feel imprisoned. And scared at the same time. But you noticed nothing about the time, you retain the fear. That feel.

Friday isn't bad, somehow.

Having an unplanned plan never excrutiate you especially when it comes to Friday -- you know, the beginning of your weekend, totally worth it. Me and my few friends went to a lovely place today. Adis Tiporang. I have no idea what does that mean but that must be some words which PROBABLY define about, river. Hah that capital 'probably' means so much.

Anyway this place is located in the northwestern part of Borneo. A good place to relax and chill. And what we did today was, having a homemade pork burger(actually it wasn't homemade, we made it next to the river.hehe). I guess that was my first attempt on diy burger and I fuckin nailed it, because it tasted, so, good.

It took only few minutes to prepare. A magical mixture of chopped onions, minced pork meat and salt for god sake and it leads us to this.

The grill-and-flip basket helped very much for the patties instead of our tiny sausage. ha. ha.

These cheese must be a criminal. They make me hungry now. Gotta go.